Saturday, May 29, 2010

From Couch To Frustration.

The Couch To 5K is a fine, fine program. I'm in my fourth week (although redoing week three), and so far I've heard nary a protest from my knee, ankle or back, which means I must be doing something right.

But damn is it frustrating.

I remember when I could run four miles. Four! Uphill. Barefoot. Through the snow. Okay, maybe not that last part. But the point is, I could run pretty dang far, and it felt good.

But now?

Now I'm huffing and puffing and generally making a fool out of myself as I trot past garage sale attendees and playing kids and dog walkers.

Now I'm looking at my iPod every five seconds to see how. much. longer. untilthetorturestops.

Now I'm red-faced and sweating and pulling at the shorts that are riding up my too fat thighs.

Now I'm miserable. Miserable and only running three minutes at a stretch (and I'm using the term "running" very loosely).

It makes me long for the good old days. Those summer days two years ago, before pregnancy and those three abdominal surgeries.

The days when I could run.

I know I'll get there again. I just have to keep at it, keep working, and ignore the frustration.

Bur damn, I wish there was a fast forward button.

11 comments:

  1. running is overrated..lol. i don't run unless i'm running from someone trying to kill me

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  2. I know how you feel. I used to be able to just run without thinking about it. Now I'm sore for says after the first run of the season. It's amazing how your body changes after a baby.

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  3. Ah - I used to love running. The worst now is not always succeeding in not peeing my pants.

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  4. You WILL get there again.

    One step, and all, you know..

    And it's a step in the right direction.

    You gotta start, it's better than going the direction of the "other"way.

    One step this way is better than one step THAT way.

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  5. I am lucky I can get up to do the treadmill at an incline/fast walk. My DD's don't run!

    Good luck!

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  6. oh, honey, i'm feeling for you. i have run my whole life and lately i feel like i'm running on cut glass, gasping and counting the moments 'til it's over. Age. Babies. Knees. Oy...

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  7. Well I'm impressed you are even doing it at all! I've been sedentary for--how old is my baby--15 months?

    Anyway, keep goin girl! It will get easier as you get into it.

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  8. I've never been able to run, so your 3 minutes seems like such a huge success. I'm trying to shave down my 17 minute mile (walking) so you are doing way better than I am!

    As for progress, perhaps it's better not to compare yourself to all those years ago and start your clock with those surgeries?

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  9. I've purchased running shoes as a first step toward taking an actual run.

    I don't want to rush so I'm allowing them to age in the closet.

    This post is going to set me back on my start date considerably. I don't even have an iPod.

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  10. I did Couch to 5K but only made it to week 5 before it got too cold to run outside. Obviously, that was a while ago, lol. I was making so much progress and then lost all that endurance I built up. ARG! Maybe this is just what I needed to get me back into it. Thanks!

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